Unrecorded Gods

I’m participating in the Unrecorded Gods community on Tumblr so I should admit here that most of my Gods with exception of Hekate are unrecorded, I hope to publish my posts from tumblr here so people can understand more of my religion but I wanted to be open, from the Green God to Mother Moon, Mother Night and their Children of the Moon and Night, all come from my own experiences.

I think it’s a beautiful way to experience polytheism, it’s also no different from the past, after all someone in the past who established famous cults started by working with unrecorded Powers who became popular enough to be called by the same name, even then we had syncretism, epithets, Gods having been merged together and many other confusing experiences that show us things weren’t as clear as we like to imagine in past polytheism, just like it isn’t in modern polytheism, both reconstructed polytheism as in traditions that survived mostly intact.

Depression and loosing my connection with my Gods

Lately I have been through a terrible depression crisis after remembering traumatic memories, I lost my connection with the Gods, even with anything good in life, I also lost my trust in them which was even more painful, I fear all, Gods, spirits, nature and humans, being surrounded by narratives of never trust the Gods or Spirits didn’t help, I wish our community was more balanced than “love and light ” in one side and “macabre dark and evil ” on the other, I don’t believe all Powers are good but having the other narrative doesn’t help anyone. Balance seems to be like something I lost, all became negative.

I’m doing my best to keep my heart open to my Gods and Others who helped me so far but it’s difficult. Hopefully I can walk this past and come out of it soon and more healed.

Still alive

I’m still here, just suffering from a block and severe depression,  my health got worse and I couldn’t find inspiration, I also started to be ashamed of my weiting.

i can’t promise I’m back but I’m trying.

as for my spiritual life there has been significant changes, G. and Hekate are now the main deities in my life together with my unrecorded pantheon, I’m very happy to know Hekate and I’m doing the symbolic one year and one day trial (that is probably be longer) with my relationship with Her. I can’t describe how those two have helped me and guided me since before I was even aware of Them. I’m very grateful.

Interest In An Unrecorded Pantheon Round Table?

Interest In An Unrecorded Pantheon Round Table?

— read in betweenstarsunknown.wordpress.com/2019/08/05/interest-in-an-unrecorded-pantheon-round-table/

Purity and devotion

I have very strong negative emotions about the topic and haven’t got the energy to properly write this draft, especially since English is not my language, still I thought it was important to share this rant, it takes courage and even if nobody reads I want to register this on my blog.

I had to block several polytheism blogs I already avoided, the feeling I had with their writing was always negative but the impact recently has been overwhelming and makes me feel horrible and I’m definitely not someone the authors of the articles would consider a good polytheist anyway.

It’s like going to church and listening to the priest talking about sinners who are unworthy of god until they repent and knowing you are one of them. 
It worries me that polytheism writing makes me feel like this, unworthy, impure, gross and judged.

The truth is that it doesn’t matter how many cleansings and purifications I do because I will remain impure by their definitions, miasma doesn’t leave me, my thoughts are always unbalanced, by body and mind sick.

Some people can put things aside, I can’t, maybe they saw a movie, had a argument, read a book or got a cold, who knows? When it’s over, a purification ceremony done and it’s all good again, but what do we do when the illness is permanent, when the thoughts don’t leave, the dirty feeling and emotions of grossness stay, when a horrible story that leaves you unbalanced was not a movie or the news or a stranger story but your life and you don’t forget, because trauma, mental illness or chronic pain don’t leave and doesn’t care about purity, cleansings or whatever you do, there is no stop button because you want to pray or go to the shrine and be a good devotee.

So I do what I can, I keep my gods in my thoughts, do small acts of devotion, wash my hands and face when pain and depression lets me, pray in any way I can, improvise with what works and try to forget the opinions of others, no lightning struck me yet so as far as I know my gods are okay with this and ask that I don’t add distance and walls between us but reach closer, they can tell me what I need to know.


Since I’m support diversity in polytheism this looks like a great idea.

Cat Hair and Coffee

So, I made a thing.

What are my goals with this new site?

Celebrating diversity in contemporary polytheism with a strong emphasis on building up. I want to honor our differences without having to use divisive language. I want there to be a visible, vocal alternative to the would-be gatekeepers. If the polytheist movement is to be a thing, I want it to be a diverse thing.  Mostly: I want those finding their way to polytheism, and those who are maybe not new to polytheism but new to interacting with other polytheists online to see that not all polytheists online are eager to tell them what they’re doing wrong.

I’m planning on purchasing a domain once I have the money for it, and I really want this to be about us, and not about me. It’s been suggested that questions get fielded, to keep conversation going, and my mind turns…

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Mini update


I haven’t written anything lately because my depression got worse again. I’m using all my energy to keep being patient and trying new medications, I have complicated reactions and a strong resistance to any kind of medication so it’s extremely frustrating and depressing, I have been doing this since I was a teen and I had mental illness since a child, only therapy doesn’t help, I try to keep hopeful but it’s hard, at least I’m stubborn and too prideful to give up.